Nearing the top of the mountain

Well, we're coming near to the end of 2011. Wonder if the world will really end in 2012.... HMM. This years been pretty hard, bad break up after bad break up. One of which i don't think i'll ever really fully recover from to be honest. If i do recover at all. But on the better side of things i've changed alot. I feel stronger, i'll need to be i guess for the future, I personally think i look alot better too haha thinner and got better make up skills and what not lol. Gained a great boyfriend finally. (LETS HOPE IT STAYS WITH ME THINKING THIS lol ). Pulled myself through exams and passed from all but 2. And i don't think thats bad for me actually. On a present note, i'm totally stressing out about my up coming french speaking exam, got an E in the last one. But to be fair i did try to fluke that pretty badly. My bad. Lesson learned. I've learnt the first and part of the seconed question off by heart so i'm doing better than before :L Haven't done any art either :S Oh well i'm not doing anything tomorrow so i think i'll spend tomorrow doing all that and catch up a bit, it'll be fine as long as i wake up lol. I still feel like a big loser most of the time. But if theres one thing listening to lady gagas taught me, its that no matter how conseated and fucking dicky other people are, you can't let them stop you from being who you really are. Because thats not right. And my new years resiloution (one of them at least), is to let who i actually am show more. I don't want to hide away what i feel anymore and wear clothes that people won't judge me in. I like wearing alternative shit and i like tribal necklesses and bracelets and i like crystal pendants and i don't think emos are gay. I think chavs are gay. Theres nothing wrong with loving who you are! I was born this way :P lol. I don't care if i'm short or if im not skinny enough. God dammit if i could be id be a warrior :L .
AH. Writing all that made me feel rather good actually xD. Teehee. Well right not i feel like playing skyrim and you can't say no to that. AND YES I AM LEVEL 63. And i can be any level i want to be. harhar. Besides i gotta get the urge out now or i won't be able to work all tomorrow hehe. Night night blogger. Even no one reads this. Good night possible reader.

Ima sitting with Ben Reeves.

Well right now i am indeed sitting with ben reeves who said he didnt bitch about me but yeah he probably did but i dont mind its the deniying it that counts really isnt it :L Hes looking at pictures of gressenhall workhouse where he... works. Ironic really. OMG its christmas soon! im so excited >.< and bens getting wet over guitars. Not sure if we're going to prom together or not yet. I hope so cos that means i have a MALE date to go with. And bens just awesome anyway really so i dont mind. But he'll probably go with chris. Cos there the biggest music making bum buddies ever and what not. But i bet i'll get to dance with him in the end.... if he can dance. Nah i don't see that happening actually. I'll just dance by myself :L. LUUUUUUUKE ELLIS. has a job. WOW. lukey has a jobbums! and ashly has a jobbums! Yeah i really dont know why im writing this. Its most likely out of boredum. Yeah. I'll stop now.

Fuck you PUK code.

Honestly! I just spent like the last 20mins trying to get on to MY PHONE! Just wanted to make a bloody code so no one could look through my phone and it locks me out. Urgh what a palarva. Wow. Was just reading through my last post (Cos i'm sad like that).... thats realllllly sad. Like its actually pathetic. I'm metophorically slapping and shooting myself in the face if anyone actually ever reads that. Not that they will no one reads this i just get bored sometimes. In fact i might remove that post or at least edit it (ACHEM when i can be botherd). Oh dear lord i'm in love with a NPC! AN N  P  C. What have you gotten yourself in for here livvy? Playing Skyrim waaaay too much. But to be fair my life sucks its so isolated. This house really is a cage. LOL, do you knoww what i want for christmas? Farkas to be a real person :L. Hes a lovely husband hehe. God if there was someone in the world that looked just the same as him i would actually fall in love at first sight. Ok. Enough of the nerd stuff. Lets let me chow down on whats going on with the world of the day dreamer. Not much. Sums it up in the good things area. Things with guys arnt too great. Im a terrible person. I actually am. But jesus christ im aloud to have a friend to talk to on the phone right? Urgh. Enough of this jibba jabba i need to like chill before my back knots up even more -.- Night night cold world.